After reading someone's xanga entry *cough tinjun cough*, I was finally reminded that something called "xanga" does exist, and after almost a year's hiatus, I'm motivated in trying to update more frequently .

So.. what time is it that I'm talking about?  Time to leave.. naturally .  As most of you know, I have this tendency to feel the sense of loss at almost anything that I see/feel/experience more than a few times.. and it's my final month at my current co-op placement at the Cashman lab (Brain Research Centre in the ubc hospital [for those of you without facebook.. shame on you! ]  *winnie* :P).  Remembering the anxiousness of starting the job (first ever job for me nonetheless), it has been quite an experience I'd say -- though not necessarily the best.  Thinking back, the first day I was there, I arrived at 8:20 when the only people in hte lab there were Eddie and Elaine; everything felt so new, so overwhelming (seeing all the bottles of buffers and solutions on the shelf).  Gathering from my 20 years of experience, I wouldn't've imagined how well I could get along with all the people in the lab -- I was never the socializing type who can get to know everyone around them; it was just a dream group of people to work with  especially on my first job.  From the talks related to work to the chitchat of the guy with a hot defined body but weird face.. was a progression that I'd never would've imagined to happen.  It's not to say that there's no downside to work; the most obvious being my obsessive paranoia about getting infected with the things I work with with unidentified risk (playing with treatments to the normal form of the prion protein [aka the same protein that causes the fatal mad cow disease]).  For those who know, it has been literally devastating for me; even I am convinced that I should seek psychological help in some form or another.. OCD (obsessive-compulsive disorder) might not even adequately describe my current state of mind.  I'll spare y'all about the obnoxious things that I do and preoccupy my mind just to prevent any contact with the things that I work with; let's just say, it has been so bad that my daily habits and future outlook on life (practially none now) has taken a 180° turn for the worse and so far everyone's efforts in distracting my fears have been ineffective.  Nonetheless, going onto the last month of work I can't help but start feeling the same sense of loss. . .  it's so ironic: devastated at work.. but yet missing it already. . .......... . .......  I wonder how work's going to be like at my next placement starting in January at the BC cancer agency...

So how has life been for the past year other than work?  Surprisingly good, haven't really lost contact with everyone, if anything, i'm seeing everyone more these days :P  Calvin and I? We're engaged on our 4th year anniversary, talk about surprises hehe   No dates have been set yet though so.. don't worry.. we won't be sending out "red bombs" anytime within the next year.. BUT I'm not saying that you shouldn't start saving up now   But no.. I still haven't come out yet.. as bizzare as that sounds... but anyway.... yes i'm planning i'm planning...... .____.||

That was a quick wrapup of the past year... :P  I'll update with other miscellaneous stuff later.. for now, gotta zzzzzzzzzzzzz............  oh and GOOD LUCK to those suckers who are cramming for their finals =P ;) haha.. k/ding

some pics: 

阿好??  ROFL!   then  who is "ar wong"??

was a great gathering/hotpot dinner :P

will update later :)

btw... happy 3.5 yrs calcal :P  i love you :)

reliving one of the heart-shattering moments so far ago.. .